Published on 12, July, 2020
In my youth I did not care about friends and being alone seemed normal to me until I started to be bullied and ostracised in school.
From my late 20s up to now I used to beat myself up over not making the effort to reach out to people and make friends and not having a close relationship outside my family.
Now, I realise those unfulfilled desires were making me unhappy, so I said *** it and mostly embraced being alone. There are worse things to be than single and I'm better off without those pressures.
I like my afternoon naps, playing on my Switch and building models and not worrying about pleasing anyone but myself.
If I could I would take my romantic, sexual and social yearnings, drop them in a bin and light it on fire.
I still have my family and they have me, for better or worse.
There is a lot to be said for maturity & understanding ones self.Accepting yourself & like yourself for who you are puts you in a must better position for having a relationship.It's sad to hear of so many peeps on the Autistic spectrum talking about wishing they had no yearnings for intimate relationships.
I wish there was a simple answer to solve this dilemma. I am in a similar position myself in which I am coming to terms with the fact that I will most prob spend the rest of my life on my own. And that is something I don't want. But cannot see how a future with someone else is possible.
How do I meet that someone special, like me, with similar interests & needs??