Alone by circumstance at first but now alone by choice

In my youth I did not care about friends and being alone seemed normal to me until I started to be bullied and ostracised in school.

From my late 20s up to now I used to beat myself up over not making the effort to reach out to people and make friends and not having a close relationship outside my family.  

Now, I realise those unfulfilled desires were making me unhappy, so I said *** it and mostly embraced being alone.   There are worse things to be than single and I'm better off without those pressures. 

I like my afternoon naps, playing on my Switch and building models and not worrying about pleasing anyone but myself.

If I could I would take my romantic, sexual and social yearnings, drop them in a bin and light it on fire.

I still have my family and they have me, for better or worse.