Published on 12, July, 2020
Does anyone here struggle to understand how they feel?
I'm recently diagnosed, and since knowing that I'm autistic, I feel as though the symptoms of it are much clearer to me now. I know that I'm feeling either bad or good, but I can't necessarily pin point the reason why or the specific emotion attached to. Its as though I've gone through so many difficult times (not trauma or a specific bad event, just bad memories) that everything seems to trigger some emotions which are negative. It's extremely frustrating because it puts my day off massively, and no one can comfort me because I either don't tell them, or I can't even tell them what's wrong.
I’m not diagnosed as yet but I do share some of what you have written. Most of the things I feel seem to be negative or feel like a negative feeling even if it should be excitement or joy. Hope that makes sense as I have succeeded in confusing myself there? I often get told I’m miserable or flat even when I think I’m in a positive mood.
I do get excited about my interests and that can get perceived as being somewhat selfish from some individuals who are close to me.
Anyway it’s confusing to say the least.