Published on 12, July, 2020
Does anyone here struggle to understand how they feel?
I'm recently diagnosed, and since knowing that I'm autistic, I feel as though the symptoms of it are much clearer to me now. I know that I'm feeling either bad or good, but I can't necessarily pin point the reason why or the specific emotion attached to. Its as though I've gone through so many difficult times (not trauma or a specific bad event, just bad memories) that everything seems to trigger some emotions which are negative. It's extremely frustrating because it puts my day off massively, and no one can comfort me because I either don't tell them, or I can't even tell them what's wrong.
maybe.... sadness and anger are easy, whether the anger is a overlap and cover of sadness and thus fake is a question i suppose, although anger fuels productivity. sadness makes you more lazy and a quitter.but yeah often people ask me how i feel, i dunno... i feel normal.... no feeling, void... not sure. default nothingness.