Published on 12, July, 2020
So I am changing jobs and really struggling with the handover of my current role.
I feel very overwhelmed as I have been working in a different office because of training the new staff, but this office is very busy and can be quite loud, whereas my old office is calm and much more of a peaceful environment.
Today, I vocalised this to my manager and requested to be put back in my old office for the duration of my notice period, to which they said they are not sure if this would be possible but they would try to sort it but is likely to only be for my last 2 days, if any days at all.
Honestly, this got me feeling tearful as I feel so uncomfortable and unsettled in this office... and I ended up crying in front of my managers! Does anybody else get overwhelmed like this? Sometimes my emotions get like this and I really struggle to keep it together when so much change is happening but this leaves me feeling very childish and also quite isolated as everybody else seems to be coping just fine with all the changes that are going on...
I have been at home since July last year quite unwell with one my conditions Anorexia and have found the changes to my life difficult to cope with. I read my Autism report again with my glasses on this time and scrolled right down and saw I pretty much was moderate for Stereotyped behaviours etc. I feel like because of the past year things have become worse since I did the test. My stimming has increased, I now rock which I don't remember doing before in my life. So for a few weeks now I have done all I can to go some places I have enjoyed in the past as days out so not hyperfocus on what is most important to me which is my faith. It is helping me so far, but it is difficult to make some journeys even with Taxicard or using other mobility services. I have since been to London Zoo, the Discord Experience for lights in South Kensighton as a delayed birthday treat and I also have been on a boat ride with Uber on Thames Clipper. I am going to the theatre on Friday with family as well to see Back to the Future. It is not my times to go as I used to attend at 2.30pm and the show starts at 7.30pm. But at least my sister is dropping me home and we are travelling there together. I have fair close earkmarked as well for hopefully my favourite two rides. I am sorry that you Llama are going through this as well.