Never felt more lonely since ASD diagnosis

I was diagnosed a few weeks ago and initially I felt a huge wave of relief and burst into tears. Then I felt confusion and anxiety wondering if I will ever feel like I belong and wondering who I really am without the mask. And now I just feel so completely alone. I don't have many people in my life. Just my partner and children and my Mum. My Mum has always been unable to see things from other people's perspectives and is heavily critical of anything I do. But after having gone through the journey with me getting my own children diagnosed, I honestly thought she would be somewhat understanding when I got diagnosed myself. Instead she has been just the same as always and doesn't seem to understand that I really just struggle with life and have done for my entire life. I feel like if I try to take one step forward she is right there dragging me back three steps simply because she can't accept me for who I am. I think she thinks I can just snap out of it. I don't want to lose the only family I have around but I also don't want to keep being dragged back when I'm trying to progress. I have tried to talk to her but she is incredibly stubborn and can never accept that she is ever in the wrong. I just don't know what to do or who to turn to anymore. I feel so lost and lonely and I'm constantly worrying about what is going to happen in my future.

Parents
  • Hey

    also going through similar

    duagnosed lst year after 40 years of misdiagnosis 

    I find using this hard so apologies for such brief reply but I wanted to add my voice to the list so you know you are not alone. 

    does hearing other people’s stories help you? I have a list of autobiographies that you might like. 

    perhaps we could all keep chatting on this thread too? If you like. 

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  • Hey

    also going through similar

    duagnosed lst year after 40 years of misdiagnosis 

    I find using this hard so apologies for such brief reply but I wanted to add my voice to the list so you know you are not alone. 

    does hearing other people’s stories help you? I have a list of autobiographies that you might like. 

    perhaps we could all keep chatting on this thread too? If you like. 

Children
  • Thankyou, I appreciate you're input. Don't worry I'm new on here so I'm learning how to use it myself. The fact that you even took the time to write a reply is more than enough. 

    Yes, I find it very comforting to know I'm not alone in my experiences so listening to stories from others does help.

    Yeah sure, I'm very happy for people to chat on here :)