long term depression & suicidal thoughts

I think they should allow us euthanasia drugs. People with Asperger's can have them in The Netherlands and Belgium. This is a HORRIBLE disability, and we get NO help for it whatsoever. There are no disability payments, we are expected to work in the sensory hell that the NTs have created. The disability assessment is a JOKE. How can a nurse assess a complex neurological condition, over the phone? Surely a Psychiatrist or a Neurologist should be the assessor? I HATE my parents for bringing me into this existence. Why does someone else have the right to inflict this horrible life on another person without offering them a painless way out? It is disgusting. N.T.s are liars and they disgust me, as do 'parents', who are totally selfish and do not care at all about the horrible existence their child will be forced to live. 

thanks, may I ask what medication / dose helped you?

Medication helped me. Exercise also helps, it releases endorphins that automatically make you feel better. Fun fact. 

Some days are bad, some are good, but I try to remember on a bad day that another good day will come. 

Keep fighting. There is light at the end of the tunnel.

Yes, talking about your feelings, having them acknowledged and feeling like there is still a place in the world for you.

Personally, I use the Samaritans, even if I'm not feeling suicidal but if I'm so upset I need to hear someone's voice. SHOUT is another service that can help.

Depending on where you are in your depression, diet and exercise help, though it can be tough to do until you start feeling a bit better

I used to have gut issues due to food sensitivities, which caused me to have low mood, among other physical health issues. Not eating certain types of inflammatory foods, alleviated the low mood and health issues I was facing. But everyone's health issues are different. 

mushroom therapy? It's legal in Netherlands.

thanks you for these essential tools!

thanks, yeah I've heard of both of these

yeah it likely will be a lifelong struggle..

although... some say that certain mushrooms can cure depression, and have been researched and currently are being researched into their effect of curing lifelong depression, of which is a recognised trait in them.. .although the mushrooms are illegal... despite the fact they can cure depression and medical science agrees is one of the only things that cures lifelong persistent depression.

and have you seen the other medical trials in which they use ketamine to cure depression and it actually  works under controlled monitored use by doctors. it changes the patients brain and prevents them getting depression again.

but yeah, all of these are currently not available to the public and the last one if by invite to clinical trials.

thanks, the situation has been escalating over nearly 3 years now so I'm pretty well clued up on all this stuff even if it doesn't help

thanks, I don't drink / get plenty of exercise / get up early due to work so all of the usual kind of suggestions don't help

Hi there, 

I wanted to let you know about our web page on depression which lists things other people have done that they have found helpful: https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health/depression

As you mention suicide in the thread title, I am sharing some additional information.  

If you haven't already you may like to contact your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP may be able to help you get appropriate help and support. If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service:  http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/AboutNHSservices/Emergencyandurgentcareservices/Pages/NHS-111.aspx      

The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.     

MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.     
Another source of support you may like to consider are Shout 85258 which is a free, confidential, anonymous text support service. Should you wish to contact someone, I have popped a link to their website here for you: https://giveusashout.org/get-help/    

If you feel you need more urgent help, our website lists some options you could consider https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help      

If you ever feel very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.     

Kind regards,

Sharon Mod

not much.

although i feel having frequent kickboxing classes a week reduces stress and builds me up and makes me feel better and the skill and physical increase then makes me feel it would be a waste simply to let this die.

then ofcourse having parents alive helps as youd not wanna go until they have gone first and youd then maybe also want to make sure they feel comfortable in their going by making sure your future is set and on the right course so as to not make them pass with worry about you. but then youd have likely got a certain distance like got a property and ability to see future retirement due to setting your life that you then feel like it would be a bit of a waste to just end it and it better to have your death as the regular wait for old age passing and enjoy what you have earned as in the next life you maybe worse off than this life if reincarnation exists. but you will always feel it, perhaps quitting alcohol is a good idea if you drink it as i feel thats definately a depressive.... and going to bed early as i personally feel the later it gets the more depressed and moody i am although i cant help that as my job has me working all the way through night sometimes and forces me to be awake and at a place i despise for overly long night hours that im not even paid night rate for.