Published on 12, July, 2020
Does anyone here find talking to people hard work? I feel like my self talk is constantly working over time trying parse what the other person is saying, and then I'm telling myself that they may be trying to tell me something different or that a smile or facial expression can mean loads of things. Sometimes I have to tell myself to just listen. If I am in a group of people it's terrible, like people are speaking in tongues and there too many conversations going on at the same time.
I had the first part of an autism assessment recently and haven't been back for the second part because they kept saying I was too verbally fluid and used gesture. Even though if anyone knew me from childhood they would say I was extremely quiet, which I am, unless you engage me in a topic I know about. I think I have fairly limited gestures as opposed to other people aswell.
As an adult in my 40's I think I have managed to learn loads of ways to deal with things I find difficult.
I wondered if anyone else has a similar experience? Debating whether to continue on the diagnosis journey, or take a route that is less NHS.
I find it a nightmare too, nearly every conversation I get into is like a verbal fistfight. Of course as an autistic man, if I put a foot wrong, for example mention a t.v show someone else had mentioned to anything else, or fail to instantly acknowledge and remember with perfect crystal clarity.Well that becomes a capital crime, at least for me, for other folks, dealing with the same people, its just fine
Yes. I remember when I was child watching people debate on the news thinking how do think fast enough to do that?