Published on 12, July, 2020
When I got diagnosed with the following three things, OCD, High Anxiety and Autism it was suggested for me to research, join forums etc to help me because services in the NHS are so limited. However I have found social media awareness from fellow autistic people so valuable. But every time I see comments stating that everyone is autistic these days, its a trend, its attention seeking, if you don't have high support needs you aren't autistic and attention seeking. People who are autistic are the minority these days and 80% are autistic. Then I'd see these people argue with those who respond explaining how difficult their day to day can be.
now I want to make clear in this post that those who are considered high support needs level 3 do need to be advocated for and I will never understand the level of difficulty they may go through on a day to day basis.
But I type this post feeling like a fake and bad for being autistic myself. I have struggled all my life and being trying desperately to find out from doctors what is wrong with me. Have I had mental health problems, was it hormonal issues, is there a physical problem causing the issues or am I just a bad person. I've desperately wanted help and answers and I have waited decades to know. Then I find out there was nothing wrong with me, I was just autistic, wired differently and that's ok. I can learn about myself more.
The other day I had what felt like a panic attack in the street, my son had a meltdown, he's on a waiting list for an autism assessment too. I knew what the problem was but that didn't stop a car in the street stopping to check if everything is OK. That made me feel like I had done something wrong and I wanted to just go back home and lock myself in the house, I barely go out as it is as I struggle to leave the house due to the outside world. So I now wear a sunflower lanyard and because of seeing comments like this on social media I even feel guilty for doing that.
I think going forward I will not read comments on social media, there's my downfall.
But I feel so bad right now because I am autistic.
yeah social media is bad for everyone anyway.everyone just wants a fight on social media and its so easy to either get upset about it or fall into the trap of arguing with them for days, the latter which i end up doing lol
There is nothing wrong with me. Its everyone else that got problems
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I can’t say I have ever felt “guilty” for being autistic but I have sometimes referred to myself in derogatory ways in my head. I’m trying not to do it anymore though.
Thank you for this response. I appreciate it. I just got myself all upset over it. So thank you.
Rainbow Pixie said: there was nothing wrong with me, I was just autistic, wired differently and that's ok.
Hang on to this bit and don't feel bad
I think the latest figure was saying something like 1 in 70 people may be autistic. It's difficult sometimes when there seems to be this backlash or anti sentiment. Personally, I find people that think like that need to be avoided or aren't worth knowing. Rights aren't pie, more rights for you, me and others doesn't mean less rights for anyone else. The person stopping in the car was probably trying to be nice, who knows they may have been autistic themselves, so try not to feel bad that they stopped.
Maybe do something you like today whether that's bake a cake or watch the telly and give yourself a break
Rainbow Pixie said:People who are autistic are the minority these days and 80% are autistic.
Typo, that should have said people who are allistic are the minority etc...