Published on 12, July, 2020
Have You ever seen Something in Your life that You wish You could UN-SEE ?There have been Two things for Me.1, I saw my Neighbours across the Road having sex, and by the time i put My binoculars down and got off the wordrobe i was disgusted ! 2. No joke.Was 15 when i peered over my Neighbours fence and saw His car exhaust pipe connected to a hose.Had to hear His Mum screaming when Police needed Her to identify His Body in " situ" in the Car.As i was the one who called the Ambulance i had to go to a coroners inquest.All because His Girlfriend left Him.He was 25.To this very Day i still can.t get it out of my Head.The worst part was when His Dad knocked on our door in tears and asked Me if i could Recall His last few Days.Even at 15 it broke My heart.Yes, 1 was a joke but No.2 still chokes Me to this Day.I saw first hand how losing a loved Family Member Devastates Loved ones.So....If You ever feel that low....Please remember...Your " escape " will leave devastation "It is only painful for those who are left behind...........
It is only painful for those who are left behind
Honestly that's one of the things that keeps me going. It's up in the air what would happen were my mum to die, but I would never want to put her through that grief.
I came very close in my teens but ultimately made a pact with myself that i could not do it while my parents were still alive. I just couldn't do that to them.