Feeling of difference

I always felt like I didnt fit in with anyone but then when I made a friend who was so simular to me it was almost scary, I found out she was autistic and I looked into it. I was in tears from finally feeling like I fit somehow. But every once in a while, Ill see something thats like "autistic people struggle with x,y,z" then I think "oh wait I dont struggle with that, maybe I cant be autistic" then I end up feeling a bit depressed for some time because I dont seem to fit with NTs or NDs. I then just have to remind myself that its a spectrum and somethings wont affect me in the same way or to the same degree. And then I go over all the things that made me feel so seen with the autistic community then I feel fine again. Id say there are far more autistic traits I have over I dont have, but sometimes it can make me feel imposter-y.

I always felt like I didnt fit in with anyone but then when I made a friend who was so simular to me it was almost scary, I found out she was autistic and I looked into it. I was in tears from finally feeling like I fit somehow. But every once in a while, Ill see something thats like "autistic people struggle with x,y,z" then I think "oh wait I dont struggle with that, maybe I cant be autistic" then I end up feeling a bit depressed for some time because I dont seem to fit with NTs or NDs. I then just have to remind myself that its a spectrum and somethings wont affect me in the same way or to the same degree. And then I go over all the things that made me feel so seen with the autistic community then I feel fine again. Id say there are far more autistic traits I have over I dont have, but sometimes it can make me feel imposter-y.