Published on 12, July, 2020
for years now, ever since i can remember, I have written my thoughts down. I have a special notebook & i used to meditate especially before bed as i struggle with sleep. If i feel anxious I can’t sleep & sometimes writing is the only thing that helps. I don’t get the comfort i should get & i struggle with that. Does anyone else feel like this? I know it is hard for others to understand me, how i feel etc but sometimes i wish they would try harder. I only just found out that autism is actually a disibility. Sorry didn’t spell that right. Feel like my whole life i have been apologising for who i am, just coz i am different. I don’t know anyone else who is autistic so sometimes this forum is the only thing that helps.
also feeling emotional when people don’t understand me. People think i am being ‘silly’ or ‘pathetic’ or ‘weird’
thank you and sorry it is so long!
I dont exactly write my thoughts down, but throughout the day I think of how id type up a post of what is happening right now on the forum. I ussually dont actually type them since it would be wayyy too many posts that they probably ban me
Sometimes when im trying to explain something but nobody understands or they think im being dramatic then I can start having a fit and cry if it goes on long enough (sometimes it turns into a meltdown)