Published on 12, July, 2020
I went to my first concert in August 2022 - Westlife at Wembley Stadium. A choice for my first concert but I intended to make a day of it in London and meet friends (which didn't go to plan).
I've just come back from my second concert - JLS at the Birmingham Utilita Arena. Very different circumstances from the last one; no friends and my confidence level is as low as it can be. I did wear my sunflower lanyard this time.
I think in both cases the fear of judgement got the better of me. I was able to bob side to side, clap and mouth along to the song but I didn't let myself dance.
Getting caught up in those big crowds when leaving was hard - it's this part I wish I had someone with me for. Also walking through town on my own at night - I can appreciate how scary it can be for women/femme people.
I know I can do it but I think just for my own safety and comfort I'd prefer people with me.
I remember when I was 18, I had to go for this job assessment day thing. I had to wear a suit, make notes about sales, and it was like a 12 hour day. Came home and was pretty upset, insisting that I have someone with me next time I have to go for a job interview or something.
I'm mixed with it. I don't always need company, but I know now the value of it. I'm awkward enough on my own, it's worse when I've got more to think about.
Yeah, just in a reflective mood. I'm glad I did it though, it was nice to have my annual night out (!).
Well done for going despite feeling stressed. I'm glad you managed to go.
I've been to one live concert before to see Take That. I didn't enjoy it, there music was sensational but the volume of people and the noise was unbearable. I had to leave before the concert was even halfway through. I do all my concert watching on YT now, it's safer for me.
I intend to go and see Take That next year but I hope it's a bit less overwhelming.