Published on 12, July, 2020
Recently I have asked various people about how to initiate the process of friendships and bonding, but their answers have always been passive i.e, "it will happen when it happens" or "you're better off being by yourself" which I find counterproductive.
To put it bluntly, I am f******lonely. Maybe it is my instinctive need for belonging and companionship that is compelling me to seek that out.
Am I wrong?
No. I've also had that feeling of shame that I'm being difficult and reasonable for wanting companionship. I've internalised some of the things said to me.
My method over the last few years was usually reaching out to people I felt I gelled with over social media.
There's a line between chasing someone and developing a connection naturally which I struggled to balance.