Published on 12, July, 2020
Does this make any kind of sense to anyone?
For me, society seems to be present me with a choice
1. Act normal, uptight and be accepted on the surface, as a walk down the street, but feel depressed, isolated because I have internally obliterated some of the essential quirky parts of my character.
2. Relax, act a bit quirky, and have people avoid me in the street, and be treated like some kind of rapist, mad animal or wierd alien sub-species.
From my own perspective, it seems that people outside have this extra, unnecessary layer, that is like an armed militaristic assault vehicle designed to convince people of their social status - it makes them seem fake, uptight and often rather reactionary, even if they identify as progressive or left wing, because they can't see past their social conditioning needs, that they push in my face at every possible mimenf. If I try to conform to their behaviours of physical uptightness, pushing out my personality like some kind of armed militaristic assault vehicle then my body has to become extremely tense indeed, it's like I'm absorbing all their uptightness, and externally I seem to go to the extreme of their behaviour and often appear robotic or irritable or unreasonably idealistic.
So, that's my dilemma either become robotic or be treated like a potential alien-weirdo-rapist.
Sound familiar, or not?
Why would you include 'rapist' as a description? As long as you're not raping/have raped/are threatening to rape people - you won't be treated like one.
Actually Autumn_Trees, I don’t think what you say is true - there is a difference in the way that men and women, typically but not universally, react to perceived threats. And what we’re dealing with here is with people who see others behaving differently or abnormally as a threat, something like an invading tribe, something alien invading their territory. Clearly there are plenty of people who see deeper, emotionally, than surface judgements who this doesn’t apply to, but if people are perceiving a threat then:
1) men typically, but not always, will react to external threats, the invading tribe, so to speak, with violence to repel the attack.
2) women typically, but not always, will react to the threat of the invading tribe, with an instinctive fear of rape.
These distinctive reactions are not only seen when people feel threatened by differences of neurodiversity. I’m sure we are all aware of instance where other types of differences between people have tended to result in the above behaviours - namely people being lynched, or people being seen as a sexual threat. So, let’s not pretend it doesn’t happen.