Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm sorry if my question does not belong here. I am not officially diagnosed but have suspected autism. Every time I start a new job, I am fine for a few months, then I go into a spiral of thinking I'm not liked or not wanted there... especially if I interact with these people a lot everyday. I can never read peoples intensions with me. Of course it could be related to my psychosis diagnosis, but I don't feel its paranoia. I realise that I could be wrong in my thinking and I know I am overthinking it, but I cannot stop it. I don't feel people are plotting against me, I just don't feel very liked or wanted. And I end up feeling like I don't fit in.
I've never fit in anywhere. My thoughts are always hyper focused on if people like me, have I said something wrong, are people looking at me weirdly?
It does my anxiety no good whatsoever. I feel like the most unpopular girl in the world. Funny fact I'm writing a series of journals called the journals of the most unpopular girl in the World!