Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm struggling with my friends. I managed to get myself some friends, neurotypical. But they comment on my autism and my being different.. and because of that I feel like I need to be different. I've started acting different, masking I think it is, and it's draining me physically and mentally. I've been feeling ugly as well, worried no one will want to marry me because I don't look that attractive. I'm feeling particularly self critical now.
They don't sound very friendly; commenting on your differences to the extent it becomes noticeable. They're subtly ostracising you.
I've never had friends and I can forget romantic relationships. I take it you're still young. Well, these experiences toughen you up - you be a thick skinned cold hearted b/stard like me soon and you won't worry about it.