Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm currently abroad which means I don't have access to the support systems I've relied on for the past 3 months.
I've spoken about said situation on here a couple of times but I seem to flip flop between feeling determined to turn my life around and feeling angry and frustrated that it happened in this way. Context is here: community.autism.org.uk/.../i-m-in-an-incredibly-isolating-situation
I know my life needed changing, as well as my behaviour/attitude and everything else, but thousands of strangers online screaming at me calling me pretty much every name under the sun (however justified it was) doesn't do me any favours. If anything it makes me want to give up.
I'm at that stage where I really don't know if I can hold on much longer. I can't see much hope for the future and I'm still grieving the loss of my wider support network. I don't feel like I want to make new friends and I don't see why I should have to "get over" it.
This is just a vent.
Hi I am so sorry you're struggling. It must be really difficult for you being without your usual support. Please keep posting here if you need to, more valuable and helpful members will be online soon :-)
In the meantime I found this list on crisis helplines on Wiki.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines
Wherever you are, it should be amongst this list somewhere.
I hope this helps and you're feeling supported soon.