Published on 12, July, 2020
This is quite embarrassing to write but I'm going to do it anyway. Okay - this might just be a 'me' thing - if that's the case please just ignore this post but:
Why is getting washed and/or clean so hard?
I don't know if it is an autistic thing but getting in the shower/changing clothes/changing bedding and doing laundry is so hard for me. I am an independent adult I should be able to function better. :(
I just had a shower and washed my hair for the first time in X weeks (too ashamed to say). I feel better now and I smell nice, so why don't I manage to do it more often?
I live alone and rarely go out or see people, so my lack of washing isn't bothering anyone. I wanted to ask my weekly cleaner to help me change my sheets but I am too ashamed for her to see the state of my bed so its something I will have to tackle alone.
Anyway, if anyone can relate please comment below, or if you just want to tell me I'm being a big baby that's also fine.
Could it be something to do with familiarity? The feeling we have from not showering? Something to do with the skin, sensation? I always feel better after a shower and getting into bed with fresh bed linen is lovely. Or is it motivation?
I think 1. I don't like being naked, at any point. 2. I am afraid of getting in and out of my shower (the over-bath kind? I always think I'll slip) 3. clothes *are* more comfy and soft once they've been worn a few days.So it's probably lots of things!