Published on 12, July, 2020
I put this down to my low confidence/self-esteem. I feel guilty about this, but I would be under the belief that my own friends wouldn't fully appreciate me until I had something incredible to impress them with.
I realise now that they did like me for who I was and I didn't appreciate it at the time. Even the most chronic people pleaser wouldn't travel 120 miles to see someone if they didn't want to (I hope not anyway).
I guess I just wanted someone to look me in the eyes (well, if they were autistic too, maybe not!) and tell me that I am enough.
We are our own worst critic my friend.
Definitely… it’s exhausting, have you ever suffered with symptoms of depression because of it?
Oh yes ! And i still do. You are NOT alone.
I hope you’re okay! The world is tough enough and with the addition of autism makes it even harder… i wish i was NT so much