Published on 12, July, 2020
I've always been curious:
Does anyone else have a hard time with authority?
I buckle to anyone whose labeled authorative to me.
I don't know if it's nature or nurture but rebelling or even speaking up against a boss, parent, old memeber of the family ect feels so SO wrong and uncomfortable. Really I'm such a people pleaser, confrontation in general feels shameful!
My mum raised me and my sister to be good, be quiet and be polite. Good standard stuff. But by the time I was a teen my mum's friend tried to inspire me to chase my dreams by trying reverse psychology ans tell me I'm too thick and there's no money in my desires feild. I didn't question it. I thought she was saying the normal thing adults say. My place in the world was shaky after this.
What about confrontation? Even bullying?
I found I passivly stood between the threat and my friends.
I've always been scared of what happens if I fight back!
I was a follower of rules, as a boy. But now developed a harder stance. Nothing to do with hormones, rather experience.