Published on 12, July, 2020
I’ve read a few bits since being here that have got me thinking today. Although I’m glad I found out I’m asd, and it explains so much of my life, I’m also angry because honestly I’d really rather not be. I’m also starting to think it’s taking over my life… Everything I do now in the back of my head it’ll be ‘thats the autism’. So part of that is well it’s okay, you don’t need to feel bad about not fitting in anymore or the meltdowns, but now I can’t get it out of my head. It’s almost like I’ve become stuck. Constantly reading about it, assessing things I do, knowing that if I don’t want to do something I don’t actually have to because of it. That in itself is becoming another addition that’s contributing to the burnout, which is ridiculous.
Anyone else feel like this?
Hey, sorry I know you have lots of replies but I was diagnosed with ASD just under a week ago and I feel the exact same. I thought I was going to be so happy that I finally have answers, happy that I know I'm not just 'weird'. Happy that I now understand myself a bit better. But actually, it has made me feel even worse about myself. Every single thing I do at home or at work, I'm analysing, trying to distinguish whether a non-ASD person would be doing the same, or whether its because of the autism. It's exhausting but you are not alone. It's nice to see that I am not alone either.