Published on 12, July, 2020
I thought others might be interested in sharing their experience of job interviews.
I am in the lucky position now of not having to work but I found it very hard in the past to get a job because I found the interviews so wholly traumatic.
In fact, the last years of my working life I worked for agencies because then I didn't need an interview.
Possibly the worst: I was being interviewed as a secretary for a Church of England Cathedral. I was asked 'what part do you believe that the Church of England plays in the lives of ordinary people today?'. My reply was that I feel it is irrelevant to the majority of people, who only really find it relevant at Easter, Christmas, Weddings and Funerals.
I knew immediately that although I spoke as I felt it was completely wrong and I should have lied. Their faces dropped and I think they would have liked me to leave the room immediately.
Now I understand why I spoke as I felt in the light of my autism diagnosis. I find saying what people expect/want me to say very difficult, despite many decades of 'masking'.
Job interviews (and jobs) are a huge test of a person's social skills and their ability to dissimulate, I think.
Does anyone else have a story to share?
Most of my interviews went badly wrong. In several I was told to my face at the end that I didn't get the job and honestly in their opinion I was so bad that I was unemployable.
Now, my nine month temporary job finishes in two weeks and it's back to the job centre and endless interviews. I'd rather kill myself.
Im feeling the same. Now that my job has finished I am expected to go to the ****ing job centre every week even though I have a fit note from the doctor which means I shouldnt have to, is making me very ill mentally