I don't want to go back to work

Education & Training.  www.eatjobs.co.uk/    https://www.fejobs.com/ 

What are EAT jobs? Yes I think there may be things I could teach adults
I agree about the cogs in the wheel again!

Try EAT jobs and your local council website. Lifelong learning doesn't just have to be life skills. It can be stuff like DIY or art,  baking etc too. So if you have any hobbies you could teach those but with cuts and funding etc I think the emphasis is more on getting people skills for work or better jobs. (Cogs in the wheel again....!)

"Sounds like you want to teach but the environment is no good for you and causes overload"

That is exactly it. I have thought of libraries too. My first voluntary job at 17 was in a library and i loved it. I have been looking but there arent many jobs available atm. My dream i think would be to work in one of the libraries at Oxford university but there are only jobs in the medical ones atm and i dont really fancy that.

Your singing sounds a bit like my writing. It doesnt make a lot of money but you feel fulfilled doing it 

Very good idea. I never thought of teaching life skills to adults. I actually did that as my first work experience when i was 18 but ive never thought of it as a career since then. I will look into it. Do you know where i would search for it?

Your experiences certainly chime with mine. Your description of burnout is very similar to what I went through. You make a good point about not having quiet to recover at home because of my autistic sons meltdowns. I think I would struggle to teach autistic kids again. I used to love doing it because they are like me but dealing with my own needs and my sons needs, Im not sure I could deal with other childrens if that makes sense

I think you are right though, i want to teach but the envioronment is totally unsuitable for me. I used to think I hated teaching but now i realise I love teaching, I just hate the envioronment 

Sounds like you want to teach but the environment is no good for you and causes overload. You could always look at doing private tuition at home, it would be better suited to you as you would be in your own environment and safe space. Doing online teaching is a good way forward as well.

You could even look at doing YouTube if you wanted to.

I agree with you. It sounds like you need to be doing something or else you just exist but not moving anywhere or feeling fulfilled. I am the exact same. I spend a lot of my time singing and doing online vids, I make money at this it's not massively paying but it fulfills me and keeps me busy and I enjoy doing it. I suffer from burnout a lot and am in the middle of a breakdown so I feel your struggles and pain.

As for part time work I suggest you check in your local library if you have one. Before I got chronic anxiety and tiredness I was in a library and I did really well. It was peaceful and relaxing work. I think you'd feel good doing that kind of work.

What about teaching adults in FE? Local authorities often employ people on sort of part-time rolling contracts...but you give your availability so you could just do one or two days or evening class if you wanted and its quite flexible. You can teach things like IT or basic skills or family learning. Its often with people who are disadvantaged but its really rewarding as you are helping them move on in life. The subject matter isnt rocket science either. Often it's working in community centres or places which are much different to a school. Maybe there are some EFL "colleges" in your area? Or what about doing non-teaching roles? Maybe student services type thing in a uni or college? Sometimes there's a bit of small group teaching involved and you aren't in with the hustle and bustle of kids every day or.. library work? 

It sounds as if you want to keep teaching but the sensory overload of the school environment is totally unsuitable for you.

Years ago I worked in huge noisy open plan offices and like you found it so overwhelming that I would just curl up on the floor each evening, increasingly dreading the next day. Sometimes on getting home from work I would just slide down behind the front door into a sobbing heap. I tried to keep going but eventually suffered a mental breakdown and had to resign. I didn't know I was autistic at the time, in order to realise it was autistic burnout. After a few months of recovery I got another job but it was also in a large open plan office. It led to an even bigger breakdown. 

Trying to cope with two days a week may be possible if you were to have enough quiet recovery time at home in between. However I think you have also mentioned in another post the sensory overload from your autistic child's meltdowns. Coping with that too is likely to be asking too much of yourself and lead to another burnout.

I am wondering if there is any way you could combine your knowledge of autism with your teaching skills. Might there be any opportunities for teaching autistic children one to one or in small groups, possibly in their own homes or online?

Teach online? There are lots of online agencies that use western teachers to teach eastern kids for example.

Would allow you to use your skills but so it on a controlled environment of your choosing