Published on 12, July, 2020
Does anyone else hate birthdays?
I had one yesterday. I detested everything about it. They make me feel anxious, and the lead up to it is horrible. I can’t express how they make me feel, but I fought back a meltdown in the morning, as I had work. It was a real struggle and I still feel bad today.
I don’t like people saying happy birthday, so tried to keep my head down. I don’t understand the point of birthdays, but I still feel conflicted about what I should be doing on the day. Society expected that you do certain things to celebrate. I don’t want to celebrate. But if I don’t do something to mark the occasion, I feel left out and dejected. I don’t know why.
I still get a little cake, and I do like receiving cards. If I don’t get one, it does upset me, because it’s not hard to do, and doesn’t take any effort.
Gifts aren’t important to me, and I get stressed when I’m asked what I’d like (because I’m hard to buy for). I don’t want anyone wasting money on me, and to be honest, at this age I don’t need anything. As far as I can recall, I’ve been like this since a young child. I’m 49 by the way.
Really struggling at the moment with the run up to the Jubilee. I live in a small Close of houses. The neighbours are organising a party, my wife wants to attend and I really don’t. I find the whole idea causing anxiety. They love being in a pack, I just want to be left alone. If I don’t attend, I then look like The Grinch. I just don’t see how someone buying a house next or near to me makes us blood brothers and lifelong friends.
I'm with you on that one. I just feel awkward with that sort of thing.
I don't understand why people think we should be like them. I wish people could respect we find something difficult without making us feel different. If someone has an interest I don't share I wouldn't criticize them for having that interest rather than one I prefer.