Published on 12, July, 2020
Anyone else find life as an Autistic adult immensely difficult and different? I felt like when I was a child and teenager there was loads of support but now I'm an adult everyone just abandoned me and the support and help just vanished over night. I find being an adult really hard at times. Your such an outcast to the rest of the world no one wants to bother with you. And when you try to do adult things you just crash and burn. It pees me off so much. Last year I went for over seven job interviews, didn't get one job! My parents pretty much forced me to do online dating, which I did and the result was a toxic relationship in which the man I was seeing hit me so hard I lost three teeth. No longer seeing him. And now I'm having to deal with anxiety issues as well. I went to the doctors and they put me on anti depressants, even though I told her I wasn't depressed at all! Then she referred me to the metal health team and then I found myself in a hospital called Talygarn for nearly four months! I hate medical professionals they don't help at all they just make things worse. I'll never trust a doctor again for as long as I live! I'll be turning 30 soon and it's pretty depressing because I literally have no achievements in my life. I'm an aspie, I still live with my parents even though my three brothers have all moved out, my relationships crash and burn, I can't get a job and I've been told by my mum that I'm retarded and useless, which doesn't do much for my confidence at all. Been looking for some advice and understanding for a while but couldn't find any at home so here I am.
You are not useless. I have had 4 interviews in the last month with no luck. I have a degree and am highly skilled with lots of experience. We are not useless, it's just that there are a lot of people competing for jobs. We need to keep going and we will both get one eventually. :-)
It does sound like you are very down and need something good in your life. I was lonely last month so I Googled wellbeing near me and a local charity would put on drumming classes for a group of beginners for a 10 week course came up. I have been for 3 weeks now and I cannot tell you how much better I feel just from being around people. Have a look and see if there is something in your area. This charity even met one person at the doorway who was feeling anxious about coming in and they had spoken on the phone and by email leading up to the first session. That person is completely fine now and loves it too.
I hope that you find something.