Published on 12, July, 2020
Now I know this sounds stupid, but I’m apprehensive about seeking a diagnosis, partly because I might be told I don’t have autism. I’m not sure where that would leave me. I guess it would just make me a bit of a weirdo, who has no real reason to find certain things so difficult.
I don’t feel 100% sure I have autism, but I’m questioning. I took the AQ test and scored 30, so not super low but not super high either. I’m not sure what the purpose to this post is, I’m just torn on what to do.
You'll probably end up booking an assessment in the end, so why not do it sooner and save yourself months of questioning? Do you have any old home videos of yourself? - They are what convinced me in the end - In one of me being really small, I was moving away when other children approached me, in another, I sounded regressed, in others I was sensory seeking instead of doing regular play and in another, I was sucking a dummy (as in a pacifier) instead of answering my parents' questions (I must have been about 4).
that must be spooky to watch