Feel Trapped by Life

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I identify.  Your ability to put into words what others need put into words is a powerful service.  
Irrespective of what you think or feel I am grateful that you have connected with me. 

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Alot of this sounds just like me. 

This is one of the eco-builders I follow

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-l69It3hxAY3tkBH_utLNQ

I think it's more difficult when you have sensory overload going on and just being in the presence of other people is an effort. For neurotypicals that is not the case - going for lunch or getting a coffee from the kitchen is a break for them. Some activities that take extreme effort for me, such as having a conversation, might be enjoyable and relaxing for them.

But for an autistic person they are always switched on, right up until the moment when they can be alone and stop masking, and then the shutdown hits and there is no effort left to do anything.

I used to hate when people ask me what I'm doing after work because my answer is basically "get home and collapse". I spend my weekends recharging. It takes me until about Sunday evening to feel normal again.

It seems a lot of autistic people experience this, and I often wonder how NT's feel in comparison. It's hard to tell, cos ask anyone if they're knackered after work and they seem to say 'yes', but HOW knackered are they? Presumably NTs aren't having to literally do nothing in the dark for ages just to get the energy to eat a meal and have a conversation. I can't comprehend how people do things like going to the gym or for a run on their lunch or even on a work day at all, but then I do know some autistic people who manage it - perhaps if exercise is a special interest it makes it easier to do because it's not taking up as much energy? I don't know, but life IS hard. Hard doesn't mean bad, there's plenty of good there too, but definitely hard.

It's really hard work on your own - and takes a lot of time - I've spent the last 5 years on it - rewired, re-plumbed, new windows & doors, new boiler, removed chimney breasts, 3 bathrooms - and that's not counting all the heavy structural work

I also suffer from CFS so all jobs are planned to coincide with my energy availability - or not.

Someone fitter could do it much faster - but I win on quality and fit & finish

paranoid, more just basic untrusting of governments and institutions that dont really seem to care about us and seem to want us to have miserable lives and farm every hour of our life into labour hours while cutting out any enjoyment or purpose to life.

Sounds amazing. Congratulations for doing it yourself too. I would like to do as much of it myself as I can. 

You sound more than a little paranoid. The government haven't banned Binance, the financial regulator has banned it. Mainly because they wouldn't register, and it's open to scams, much like pyramids selling. There are no comebacks if someone scams you, so if you're happy not having that security, and happy to lose everything you put into it at any moment, you can still go ahead and use it. Because banning it doesn't mean you still can't use it, it just means they can't operate in this country. And they don't. They're based overseas, and anyone can still use it,  you just went have any protection. As for banning people from withdrawing their money, they haven't done that either! The system was down for a few hours but it was soon up and running again. People panicking about nothing. I don't like this government, so I'm certainly not going to try and cover for them, but if you're going to rant about them you need to rant about the right things and have the facts sorted. Saying they don't want people to have money is ridiculous, they would love it if more people had more money, because they would get more money then! If they didn't want that, there would be no national lottery (and that's just one example). Over £70 billion has been shared out so far, with well over 5000 millionaires/multimillionaires created. Bit coin doesn't even compare to that. So no, they haven't proved you right. The chip on your shoulder is so big, you can't think straight. Sorry, but that's how it is. 

I was better prepared for the attacks on freedom than most. 

I'm very into eco builds - this house I'm just finishing has masses of insulation and is built to a very low price - I've done almost everything myself.      The next stage is a solar array linked to a Prius battery for energy storage.

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Thank you.

hopefully things will get better for you 

I've been thinking about this too. I think, not to be reductive, that (adult) life is basically about doing *** that you don't want to do. Neurotypical people aren't living at the deficit that we are so it can look as if they have simply glided through life, and some certainly do, but I'd wager that it's something to do with them not being as sensitive or afraid of change as we are predisposed to being. There are other factors and obviously I'm simplifying things but its the only explanation I have.

If you want anything good you have to be prepared to face pain, rejection and adversity. Personally, I have been in the past but the last year has knocked it out of me. Hopefully things will get easier for all of us.

totally agree - money is not absolutely necessary to be happy - if you can adapt.your thinking.

It sounds like you misunderstood me, that my response is too brief.

I'm talking as in you don't need to be rich to be happy, losing at something doesn't make someone a failure, not been able to do something others can means you're bad at it etc. 

You know all those sort of ideas when people compare their life to others. I don't feel sorry for myself because of my difficulties because I don't believe the illusion that being disabled means there's something wrong with me.