Feel Trapped by Life

I don't really know how to describe this feeling I have, It's just the feeling that I am not suited to the world I live in. I'm doing this course and it's great and it's interesting but at the same time I can't shake the feeling that there is something so wrong with finding a job plonking myself at a desk and that's me for the next 60 years or so,

Then at the same time I have no idea what else I would do because the society is set up in such a way that there isn't much of a choice and if you do operate outside the lines you'll just be considered a weirdo, crackpot, bum. Especially me in my situation with my family because they are all just so straight and narrow and live their lives and have no issues with anything apart from the odd problem that comes up that they have solve. They are happy coasting through life with 30 days a year of freedom from their jobs (if you can call it that because it has to end).

I just feel there is so much more to this 'existence' but I haven't the faintest idea about what else there is and how to get there and feel content. Sometimes I would love to just have simple life I have nice little job with nice little flat or house and just get along like that and other times I want to be able to earn 100s of thousands and live an extravagant life but then I understand what needs to be done do get to that point and that just doesn't seem like fun to me. I want to travel the world but I'm too anxious to do so, I want to be social and go out and have fun but I'm again too anxious to do so and I also have the social skills of rock, I want to find a nice girl that is nice, not a bimbo, has sense, that I find attractive. But I have no idea what women want especially my generation because for them there is no pride in being nice and respectable but it's empowering to just simply be a pain in the 4ss.

I don't know I hate rambling but I wanted to speak to you guys about this. 

Thanks, O 

  • That's true Desmond, the individual does think, but they have more thinking time if they aren't busy trying to feed themselves. There has to be a balance between being part of the community and being alone.

  • "Only the Individual thinks!"

    (Ludwig Von Mises)

  • true, the whole get rid of government thing after all is only a emotional response and a expression.

    and you can never get rid of it as another always fills the void of power. it is better to go into politics, and tbh i do feel a interest in politics, its just probs not possible, its more of a rich boys club. plus to get anywhere you have to join a party, and tbh the party system is a problem that needs to be done with too i feel, it gets in the way of any type of progress and makes a system where people are loyal to a party but yet the party does things they dont like thus people end up supporting things they dont like.

    im probably too emotional for politics anyway, especially these days in which any word you say is used as a weapon against you. it doesnt leave any openness for my emotional expressions which will be taken and used against me lol but im sure everyone can feel what i mean as im sure everyone feels it when they get screwed by the tax man or feel they have been held back in poverty all their life by the system.

  • Your right Plastic, there is a lot to be said for sharing resources as a group. It's worked for thousands of years after all. That's part of why I want to join the eco village I've been looking at. I care about the environment and want to be self sufficient. But I also know I couldn't do it all myself.

  • Exactly. That's what America does, and forced Europe and the Commonwealth to do so too.

  • But that doesn't mean doing away with government. There would be chaos and in the end, someone else would just take over anyway. If you want to see changes, go into government and physically make the changes. They are corrupt, that's easy to see. But they have built the system, of course it's going to work the way they want it too. You can shout and scream as much as you like, but the way to change a system, is to get inside of it and strip it down from the inside out. Doesn't matter how good the system is, it will always fail someone.

  • but that will just create inflation - which makes all your cash disappear.

  • Counterfeit money, created by Central Banks.

  • Pumishing the people for electing the Tories.

    No - there's just no money to keep paying out forever..

  • they dont need to be means tested, they keep pushing the age of pensions up to the point its gonna be beyond the poor masses life span anyway.... what are they like 80 years old to get a pension? ... thats already out of my familys age span, my grandfathers all died in their 60s lol

  • Pumishing the people for electing the Tories.

    Tax Credits were just an electoral bribe created by Blair. Though, in fairness, Thatcher did the same with the Poll Tax.

  • No Serfdom for me. :)

    Wait until pensions are means-tested......

  • If you were a small group, combined benefits would make a comfortable shared living - it's how most immigrants do it .    It gets more beneficial the more people are in your group.

  • Thank God I'll be a cash-buyer.

    No Serfdom for me. :)

  • whats extreme is a government or a system that claims it wants the best for you but then they dont want you to make profit because they want you to remain poor and trapped in their horrible cycle of wage slavery. they claim to want to protect you and your money but yet they ban exchanges and make it so you lose your money on it and ban your ability to withdraw your own money back off it. whos side are they supposed to be on? lol claim to want to protect the consumer but yet they attacked us and made it so we cant get our money back.

  • I have a similar feeling of being trapped. For me, ever since I entered the world of work I would say the last decade has gone by in the blink of an eye and I have nothing to show for it other than being older.

    My primary problem is that working for 8.5 hours per day (or 10 hours if you include when I had to commute) really takes it out of me and I basically don't have the time or energy to do anything in my free time - any of the things that I want to do. I feel like I spend the rest of my free time cooking, cleaning, managing my bills and home and then the remaining time sleeping. I can't believe that this is all life is... I basically work in order to put a roof over myself and have food, and then keep doing it until I'm ready to die.

    The only activities I can do are the ones with the lowest cognition required. All of the hobbies and interests that I used to have were abandoned long ago. Occasionally my passions reappear when I have a holiday, but it's not enough, and usually the first half of the holiday is spent recovering and recharging whilst doing nothing.

    I'm wondering if this is an autistic thing, because I have noticed that neurotypicals seem to manage just fine. They have a good work/life balance and do loads of stuff in their free time. They are continually doing things after work and at weekends. But for me, I can't do that. In order for me to go out in the world and do something social, I basically need 3-4 days off to recharge my batteries. I spend my weekends basically passed out most of the time and then just doing a few chores and slowly getting my energy back.

    Keeping up in a neurotypical world is exhausting. When exactly do I get time for myself? When can I get hyperfocused on things like I did as a child or teenager? I feel like the cleaning and other chores I have to do around the house are almost like a job in themselves. Plus I spend at least an hour per day shopping and cooking and washing up, it's almost like I'm doing 3 jobs just to exist and maintain myself. I don't know how people do it.

    I'm just so exhausted and mentally fatigued all the time and then I realise another year has gone by. The best years of my life have been squandered and I could easily see myself in my 40s or 50s looking back on having done nothing except work.

    It's really depressing but I don't see a way out other than winning the lottery. Sometimes I have thought about quitting my job and selling everything up and quitting life somehow, but it's not really possible without money.

  • and already another example came up about the gov not wanting any alternative open to you.... my plan to raise funds for a yacht was based on crypto trading on binance and they just banned binance because they didnt like people making high yield profits so they banned it and have now banned customers ability to withdraw their money from it too because they dont want you to make money the gov wants you to remain poor to shoe horn you into their one life template of pointless worthless servitude. yet again they prove me right. its time the people stood up and toppled every single world government and system and sent a clear message they are nothing without the peoples approval.