Published on 12, July, 2020
First time posting here so I hope I'm doing it right.
I've noticed a lot recently when my Mum talks to others about me or my brother having Autism people will often say things like "Oh they have something wrong with them" or "If only we could give them normal brains" and I'm standing there feeling like absolute crap cause then I think "Well I'm obviously useless so what's even the point of being Autistic and being alive. Then there's the sympathetic sad looks from people and the" Oh I'm so sorry for you" comments. It just really gets me down sometimes. I'm very proud of my Autism as it makes me who I am but when I hear the comments it's like a punch in the gut.
I'd really like to get to the point where it's not good or bad, it just is. I don't see why anyone should feel that having autism is a problem but I also don't get the whole 'Autism is my superpower' thing. To me it's a relief to know there is a reason why I struggle but it's less about the label and more about how I can turn to a group and say 'ok, this is what's happening, please help me to understand the way I'm seeing the world. It's helped me to learn a great deal about myself. It gives me an understanding of how I'm processing things and suggestions on how I can work around the awkward bits.
its no superpower for me ---- i think i am the point you describe "where it's not good or bad, it just is"