# Daily Updates 2 #

my partner did a dying project in the washing machine every was slightly pink for months :)

I dyed my hair today, a lovely dark drown. I can't remember when I did it previously but it's many months and my hair was looking terrible.

Now the big job is cleaning the entire bathroom with a bleach based cleaning product.

I had to look up what a Tote Bag is.

Well done. You're quite the seamstress.

well done u 

Volunteering this week. Finished an embroidery piece. Working on a tote bag now! Did some uni work

cool about the retailer

yes sometimes i use my weekend to recover and get ready for another week of work. So it is highly dangerous if u start to work weekends and dont get any recovery time and end up basically insane. Been there.

Feeling much more relaxed and grounded. Not happy it's taken most of my weekend to get to this point (most of yesterday was spent sleeping). Still waiting to hear back from my therapist.

On a plus note - a certain online retailer refunded me for an item I hadn't sent back to them. They apologised for the "inconvenience".

"Not at all" I replied. "Make as many of those mistakes as you want". 

hope you manage to figure out what works best for you and your daughter

Had my iAPT chat on Thursday - supposedly I need to make behavioural changes as part of the programme - not sure how that is going to go down as I am still working out what is best for me to avoid doing. Said I would meet a friend and do more (read some) housework... plan to see friend on Monday, so will see how I feel - it takes so much energy to do this. And similarly for housework - my O/H says not to worry about housework, but he has his own ideas about what would help.  

Trying to work out some sort of plan to help my daughter's fitness. Her newly diagnosed scoliosis is affecting her breathing and she is finding exercising more and more difficult. She needs to keep exercising, but I need to find something that she can do without exhausting her.

I am finding that worrying about my daughter has improved my own depression - but increased my anxiety.  This confused the iAPT practitioner no end. 

Take care all and have a good weekend. x

that would clear ur head for sure

First lot of full bell ringing for five months this morning; got back into it like riding a bike.

Better today thanks. Still waiting to hear back from the therapist. Taking it easy today - vegging in front of the telly with the cat.

The wider team is going through a rough patch at the moment - a lot of people have had enough and are moving on. I'm trying to influence things for the better but I'm being hindered because information isn't being passed on to me (which - strangely enough - was the reason I quit this type of role last time).

Oh and congrats on finishing your last GCSEs!!! 

Does anyone have contact with him irl? 

Woo hoo! Great news about being discharged. Hope your thumb feels better soon. x

Hi Ethan. Sorry to hear about your day, but good that you are feeling better in yourself. How are you doing today? 

Hi there. Welcome to the Forum. Good to have you here - what with the helpline going down, you're help will def be needed. Great you have your Twitter support network running - that's brilliant. 

I've calmed down a lot since I logged off, slept and eaten a decent meal which is a good sign in itself.

I've recognised I need to give myself some space (and get some support) to work through this frustration.I know it's how things are but I still get too defensive and react too quickly if I feel someone's let me down.

yes it is so easy to send a bad email --- been there done that

Real knock-back at work today. I've vented and I don't think it was the wisest thing to do.

After today I've checked in on my 12 point plan which I wrote when I last went into a tailspin. I've given myself some good advice so the grounding process has begun.

Point 7 - "Seek counsel before making any decisions or sending any e-mails".

Took me a while this evening - I've reached out to my therapist to talk through how I'm feeling.