Published on 12, July, 2020
I’m finding life really hard and feel like it’s all going to be over soon. I spoke to some Samaritans woman and she wasn’t much help. I’m depressed and I feel like there’s nothing I can do to come out of it on the other side. My whole life I’ve had set back after set back no matter how hard I tried everything went wrong and now I’m approaching my 20’s and I have no job, no friends, no home I have nothing. Last year I made myself a promise that if life hadn’t improved even a little by July 1st then that would be it, no more. As I suspected then my death date is almost here and I’ve taken no steps forward. Aspergers made life hard to start with but then leaving school everything around me fell to pieces. Parents are gone. I feel so alone. I need to speak to someone with Aspergers, someone who understands me because no one outside of the spectrum does or will. I’m nearly done because life is just one big headache for me. I’m hoping someone can help me.
Hello all, thanks for replying. I took myself to a&e in the end as Elena mod and cassandro suggests and they have given me the help i need and now I am being supported by a counsellor and a mental health team so hopefully on the mend. My dad went first because of recurring infections and then my mum a year later because of a clot. I didn't mean for life to get on top of me but everything seemed to be going wrong and I just felt like it was all over and that there was nothing I could do about it. I'm sorry all. My counsellor has assured me though that I can and will get better now.
Thanks for letting us know, and glad you're getting support. Sorry to hear about your parents. I lost both mine when I was young too.
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