I just cant figure people out. I really cant. I dont try I mess things up, i try and mess things up.
Started off someone feeling underappreciated on a project so i bought her a bottle of wine and messaged saying will leave it for her (social distancing) and said it's a thank you for all you do. Well this caused offence and i was told to keep it! I apologised saying I'm sorry I meant it as appreciation and no offence. I've never said anything about her I barely know her but I was organising the work
Then upset someone I've known for 5 minutes. I'd cancelled plans the other night explained I get anxious meeting new people etc. Then she explained she understood and if I ever want to talk shes there. Was really nice. Today I've not seen her at all but someone i thought was a friend, her husband who's meant to help with a medical issue knew that I was meant to be working today (never met him and decided not to use him as I cant find his credentials) anyway he turns up and this new lady was there. He starts telling her about why I'd called him! ! Blatant data protection issue for a start. She said I'll stop you there and she messaged me saying he told me about your issue! (Nothing disturbing at all but I dont want to disclose for my identity) anyway the lady I hoped to be friends with said I need distance from you (meaning me) my potential new friend gone. I asked my husband to check my messages but nothing untoward.
I ended up in tears as I try so bloody hard but mess up. Why cant I have 1 friend? I'm honest, caring, kind. I get hurt alot
So sorry to hear what happened, mouse2. I’d love to say something like “they know not what they do”... BUT ... they MUST know. Sounds like you’ve been unfairly judged, misunderstood AND had your privacy breached. A better day will come ... they always do. Meantime, trust in yourself, continue to be caring toward others, and know that you’re not alone.
Thank you, I'm trying to keep my mind busy. I've constantly run into such situations and ended up hurt. I just want 1 good friend