I'm not sure if anyone else on the spectrum feels this way but I am so disappointed in myself and most of the time really hate who I am.
My name is Emma and I'm 22, nearly 23, and my life feels empty and pointless. I'm fortunate to have a loving and supportive family, they have always been there for me and I love them all more than anything.
But I hate myself and it's becoming a real problem. I've never liked myself since I was diagnosed and as I've got older that feeling has only gotten stronger. I'm nearly 23 and I have nothing to show for it! I'm not pretty, I have no friends, no job and I am not trusted to go out by myself or even do the simplest things by myself like cooking... It's embarrassing to say the least and I know if it continues my life will continue to sink further into the ground.
I also feel like I'm becoming severely depressed. I've been depressed before but not like this, it feels worse now and I'm constantly experiencing bad thoughts which make me feel rubbish.
I dislike everything about who I am and I just want to go away. Sometimes I feel like I don't belong anywhere.