Published on 12, July, 2020
Feel like Im coming up to a total meltdown, trying not to let things get to me but cognitively im struggling with even being verbal with people. Mental health team didnt return my call. Tried talking to a friend she replied 'you should try being me in my life'. Im so sick of paddling flat out just to keep my head above water. NO plans to end this misery so dont want to worry anyone. Feel like such a failure and nothing people are saying is helping at mo may try distraction. All I want to do is cry.
i'm sorry you're feeling bad. I find crying helpful (sometimes). I think it actually releases chemicals which soothe our brain. I have a specific film I watch which makes me cry and I make myself warm and cosy to watch it. This only works when I'm in a specific point on the scale of upset though so may not be helpful. Try not to be too hard on yourself, you are doing the best you can. You are definitely not a failure even if you feel like you are.