Published on 12, July, 2020
Just wondering if anyone else doesn’t have any friends at all or is that just me?
No not just you. naturally happened for me this year after years of forced friendships detrimental to my well being got to the point where let it all go. feel so much better. i don't get lonely anymore now either. accepted i'm a lone wolf and anyone i'm meant to interact with i will. has made me more present and will chat to strangers sometimes or when out in a taxi when feel up to it. theres no reason to feel lonely the worlds right outside or right here or another forum if you need it. be there for yourself its you youll be with all your life. <3
I am friendless, and lonely. 51 years old and never had a friend.
I am married to a man who accepts my autism /anxieties, and of course i have a connection with him, but it's not the same as a friend to talk to and share problems with.
I should be used to being a misfit by now, but it still hurts.
calling yourself a misfit is quite hard on yourself. Is it because you've experienced rejection or insults?
I know that I remove myself from most potential friendships because I worry that I will spoil them or disappoint. I get very afraid of being close to someone or having awkward silences, or finding out how to spend time together. Maybe other people aren't as hard on you as you are on yourself?
I call myself a misfit because that is what i am. I don't fit in anywhere.
I have been to support groups, and tried to chat, or say something. I am either ignored or stared at. The eye contact during chat never looks my way, making me feel totally isolated . Even the body language excludes me. Literally turning away from me.
It was the same at mother and baby groups, the school playground, work lunch breaks, family occasions. Infact every social situation i have been in.
I don't have a warning siren flashing over my head, yet i am still a misfit