Published on 12, July, 2020
Just wondering if anyone else doesn’t have any friends at all or is that just me?
Oh no it is definitely not just you. I don't have any friends, what puzzles me is that I kinda think I'm ok with that. In order to not keep squishing me into a social norm that I just didn't fit I seem to have removed myself from it entirely; I didn't do it consciously to begin with but it is now quite obvious that is what I've done.
I would like to chat from time to time with other people like me but I think I would rather be alone than be uncomfortable and feel like I have to perform the 'normal person act'.
Having said that the excessive amounts of time I spend with only myself are probably having a detrimental effect on my mental health. I can't keep it up I suppose but I don't know what to replace it with.
Yes I am not accepted it seems either and people have tried to get me to be someone I’m not. People have said to be ‘be more spontaneous, be louder, do this, do that, be this, be that,’ I’ve just had enough of it. I would like friends though or at least one friend. I just don’t understand why people generally seem to be so fake, mean, and uncharitable.
Yes the ‘normal person act’. I know exactly what you mean.
You can chat with me?
This is Monkey. He'll love you and never leave you. He's also an excellent listener. (He's a bit rough around the edges now, but he is 17 years old, spends most nights squished in my left armpit, and doesn't particularly like baths.)
I guess it depends what friends are for:
Have I missed anything?