I am falling apart!

I am falling apart, I have had my heart broken stamped on and basically sh!t on from a very great height. It is all I can do to put one foot in front of the other, here is why.

I have had 18 months of trouble at work with a tribunal coming up.

Been in a love less marriage to somebody that gave me no support financial or otherwise.

I am separating from this person

Thought I'd met the love of my life, then found out, I am not a priority, an inanimate web site is, by the way it has 6 members and is run by a bossy dictator.

I have no income my pay was stopped in August I have approx £100 a month to live on.

Just as I thought it couldn't get any worse it has.

The supposed love of my life PMd me and asked me to stop speaking to the dictator,WTF! Obviously know where his loyalties lie.

I am on 150 mg of Sertriline which are not even touching the sides, my heart is broken and yet the person I loved more than I thought possible has sided with Slack!

WTF!

  • get away from those running the website. stay here in NAS. Who is the dictator ?

  • Thanks Dave, I was in a pretty awful space last night, you are right though look for the positives, I am feeling better today and feel better now I have slept. Thanks again.

  • Some positive angles to try and look at, but we ASD people get anxiety and depression bad.

    Try and write down the positives in your life and write at least 3 things down each day, need to think of the positives

    1 leaving a bad marriage to hopefully find a better way of living

    2 family??

    3 religion??

    Hang on in there, keep posting on here each day

  • Thankyou., BTW, this is better than FB. night night... xxx

  • I hope things all work out. It's real shitty when everything comes together at once.

    All the best,

    Cloudy

  • Shame you didn't realise before you broke my heart...

  • Yep well that's what happens when you care about somebody and feel they do not classify you in the same way, Like I have said before, actions the smaller the better, speak loader than words and grand gestures, mean nothing without the small things, e.g a txt in the morning, saying how are you? that's a good start and worth continuing, grand gestures are not required. It's the small things that cost nothing but show care that count, and if they are stopped, it is noticed, holidays and grand gestures are not required, all that is required is to know that we are loved and cared about above stuff including work and forums, e.g slack.

    you are not the only one who suffers, I am glad you have realised

  • I phoned samaritans about you and myself earlier, through my worry/concern as I had no idea what else to do.

    Everything you are posting on here is hard because I take it personally too.

    I'm in pieces seeing/hearing you like this.

  • Thanks I know, I am lucky to have her, she is the one stable part of my life. xxx

  • so much for me going to bed early! Got distracted by the forum and facebook!

    I experienced heartbreak once many years ago and it's horrible, an actual physical pain in the heart! I feel for you, I really do.

    I'm glad that the income situation will be resolved.

    xxx

  • We are and thankful. Yep heartbreak is the very worst. I am feeling it mentally and physically and yep the word 'Heartbreak', describes it very well, I couldn't actually label this awful feeling before but that is the perfect label along with betrayal and psychological agony for want of a better term. Yep we are gonna have a fab time Sunday. xxxx

    P.S the income situation hopefully should be resolved in November, but that doesn't  really help now but at least I can see an end to it. xx

  • Not really much to say but thanks, I know what you mean. xxx

  • Thanks Roswell, that means a lot. I know you have also had a pretty awful time and you are coming out of the other side. I can't  say I have hope at the moment but will remember your kind words. xxx

  • Trust me - I have my days where I just think the world is a messed up, cruel place (today was one) and in many ways, it is, but I try to believe that most people have good intentions.

    I'm glad you're with your mum - it's good to know you have somebody there to support you. Take it all day by day and remember to look after yourself. Thinking of you xxx

  • Thank you I used to be like you but now, sadly, I know

    some just turn a blind eye. I am at my mum's at the moment, I do have friends to talk to but as you probably know, sometimes that isn't  enough, thanks for your support, it means a lot. xxx

  • I know you weren't, it takes a while for notifications to show or we probably both pressed reply at the same time. Happy to be of help xxx

  • I'm so so sorry for how you are feeling at the moment!

    Work related trauma is a nightmare. I hope it gets resolved soon!

    I expect that you have been damaged from being in a loveless marriage without any support! I'm not surprised that you are separating from him!

    Feeling that you are not a priority is difficult! When we're in a relationship we need to feel that our significant other prioritises up above anybody or anything else. Without this we don't feel cared for, or validated or loved.

    The income situation is rubbish, can anything be done to alleviate that?

    Sadly, medication is no cure for heartbreak.

    We gonna have a girly day out and take your mind off of things ;-) xxx

  • I wasn't thinking of you,I you are an absolute star! you will never know what a difference speaking to you has made. xxxx