Published on 12, July, 2020
I have extreme OCD, nervous tics in my body and facial expressions and eye contact, I'm shy, I've had depression and anxiety for quite some time, I'm physically weaker than most men and have a lot of food intolerances.
I don't seem to have achieved anything in 32 years. I've tried making friends and studying and failed consistently at both due to all of the aforementioned.
My dad and most my siblings don't like me. I've shown interest in dozens of women over the years and never had a reciprocal interest.
My only close friend who lives near me is my mother. What are people's thoughts? Is a life like this pointless?
Your life is not pointless. Please talk to someone about your feelings - I've heard The Samaritans provide amazing support when you need someone to listen.
I also have OCD, depression and anxiety. I'm undergoing CBT at the moment to try and combat the OCD (I think that's the root of the issues). It's early days and it's a little scary, but I feel it's a really positive step and will hopefully make me feel better in the long run. If you haven't got in touch with your local mental health service yet, I'd recommend seeing what support's available in your area.
It's good that you have a strong relationship with your mum. Perhaps you could open up to her about how you're feeling, if you're comfortable doing so.
Please don't give up on yourself - you deserve to be happy.