Putting yourself under pressure (work)

Hi all,

It's over a year now since I suffered a major burnout leading to long term sick, and since I've returned to work I've been taking care of myself by not travelling and really carefully managing my sensory environment & keeping away from hubbub (lots of conversations etc.). My self care has worked really well, and I've feel that I've discovered "normal, healthy" levels of stress for the first time in my working life (healthy levels of stress for *me*, at least).

Now that I'm looking like I've recovered from burnout and I'm starting performing at 95% again, I can feel myself coming under pressure to start attending meetings in person again and travelling again. Before my burnout I was flying into Europe alone maybe every month and just feeling important rather than stressed. Now I'm very wary about returning to what everyone else will see as normal.

I don't know what I'm asking others here for - maybe just sympathy & to tell me that yes, I need to look after myself and not put myself under pressure.

By the way, one of the things I'm *really* mindful of is giving an inch and being expected to do a mile.............

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  • I've  been putting it off because of feeling that I ought to be able to manage and be strong.

    Yes... and probably based on your previous experience.  You've done it before, so why not now?

    Try to think of it as something like a car.  It's run for thousands of miles without a single problem or breakdown.  But then something very small happens.  Maybe the timing goes out a tiny bit.  The car still runs, though.  But nothing gets done about that fault, so it knocks on to something else, and that knocks on to something else... and then one day your car, which has never given you any problems, suddenly breaks down.  And you don't know why.  But it won't go any more.  In needs attention.

    I find my body can be just like that.  A small thing can knock on to something else, and it all just builds up - and catches me unawares.

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