Published on 12, July, 2020
Gt granddaughter is 1 today. She's having a party tomorrow. I'm going but am dreading it. The whole socialising thing outside of immediate family/stepfamily is so damn hard . Initiating conversations a no no, body posture - am I looking gone out/like a freak? , sitting their in awkward silence while the conversation flows around me .
Went. Spoke very little. Almost all to my two granddaughters. The others there didn't try to engage me in conversation.