Exactly what it says...
Tom... wtf are you up to?
You are still grieving, you are not a settled soul and need greater support other than scotch or prescription medication. You give too much and are out of kilter as you are not getting what you need back, at present.
You're right. I'm not settled. I doubt I ever will be. I don't know what to do any more.
You ring the Samaritans . You know what you get? "We can't take your call right now.' That's how it is
Got to the bottom of the box of tricks! Know that feeling. Try and steer clear of the alcohol, it’s a depressive. Just talk, ok...
like you, I’m a hobo, ducking and diving at the periphery.. always the outsider but that does not mean that you are without worth... you either frighten others by your brilliance or are more effort to suss out for a can’t be arsed society, probably both. Either way they are missing out