Exactly what it says...
Tom... wtf are you up to?
You are still grieving, you are not a settled soul and need greater support other than scotch or prescription medication. You give too much and are out of kilter as you are not getting what you need back, at present.
You're right. I'm not settled. I doubt I ever will be. I don't know what to do any more.
You ring the Samaritans . You know what you get? "We can't take your call right now.' That's how it is
I know...but talk here or pm me and I will try my best
dont take it personally or think of it as you bring a burden. Cut essential services but a growth in need from a society that’s not really working out