Published on 12, July, 2020
I am autistic. I have only recently been diagnosed. I am 43!
So I've been thinking about my differences. I think I feel all emotions just like anyone else but there is one thing I don't really feel and that is jealousy and I don't really understand it either. I think I got jealous once if that is what it was. I also don't understand the idea of 'showing off'.
My husband sometimes says to me, don't post that on facebook people will think you are showing off and I am like "why". Are you not allowed to be pleased with something you made or did and want to share it. Why would anyone take that negatively?
I suppose I can't separate my intention from someone else's perception?
I don't really get it. Anyone else?
I get the problem with separating my intention from others’ perception, definitely! I run into that particular problem all the time.
I do feel jealousy and possessiveness though. I used to have real problems with it (especially in relationships) but I have managed to train myself out of a lot of it over the last several years as I do recognise that it’s unhelpful as emotions go. :/
I've been married twice and my ex husband used to cheat on me. I put up with it for years but I wonder if that is because I didn't love him any more anyway. I think I have got jealous once over my second husband who I adore but it was very short lived. We've been together for ten years. I have plenty of other negative stuff going on though - so maybe I was spared the jealousy gene :O