Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi i am 47 ive only recently had my diagnosis of High Functioning Autism
Back in the 70s i was taken to the GPs and they just said i was an extraordinary naughty kid
so nothing was ever done about my behaviour as i progressed into Adult life it became obvious i had several abilities and skills that was just unexplainable
and friends and family just thought i was just talented its when the other side of me came out the outbursts or stupid things i would do and say
i just couldn't explain why i would do things ok now that i have an explanation it doesn't forgive the things ive done in the past but certainly explains it
Family and friends know about my diagnosis but even today they still dont accept it and i am to blame ,
Even today its still happening the outbursts in public or on Social Media i just can not see what i am doing there is no help available where i live
and i am fed up of trying to explain to GPs or People why i have this condition would be easier if i walked around with a label on my forehead
Skeggy Lad said:Even today its still happening the outbursts in public or on Social Media i just can not see what i am doing
It will always happen, it's not your fault.
Apart from here i don't do any kind of social media, I find that limits the number of people I upset in one day.
I've just deactivated from FaceBook. I, too, was upsetting people - though not intentionally. I posted something about the vanity and superficiality of people who do constant 'selfies' and plaster them over their profile page... which didn't go down well with some work colleagues who do just that! But I mean... I know what they look like. Why do they keep feeling the overwhelming need to keep showing me! None of them is model or film star material. I personally detest seeing my own photo.
Apart from that, I realised just how much privacy I was sacrificing.
Same here. I think a big part of the problem is the 'social distance' aspect of social media. I don't have someone standing in front of me. I may not ever meet them in real life. I'm safe in my room. So I'll say what I feel. Most of the things I said on there I would never say to someone standing in front of me. I wouldn't have the courage.
Closely related to that, too, is the fact that throughout my life, I've either been ignored or ridiculed for anything I say. Any opinions I've expressed have usually been rubbished, leaving me weakened. I'm not good at articulating my thoughts, or constructing a proper argument, in front of people. I need time alone and space - and no risk of interruptions - to be able to do that. So to finally find a medium through which I can use my voice and say what I think is very seductive and empowering.