Published on 12, July, 2020
Does anybody else feel like they’ve got all the pieces of the jigsaw but they don’t know how to put them together?
For me, it actually makes perfect sense that I wouldn’t know how to put the pieces together, unless I was going to copy the nt lifestyle that is, which I’m not. So I guess it’s perfectly natural to not know how to put the pieces together because I don’t really have a picture or a model to go on because I’ve never lived my life as me before and of course, there’s not another me in the world so there is no model that I can go off.
I’m just very happy that I know I’ve got all the pieces of the puzzle and I’ve now got somebody who is going to help me to put them together in a way that’s perfect for me.
I spoke to my next door neighbour yesterday, after a brief chat we had a few days previous to this. He said our brief chat felt like the first time in a long time that he had spoken to somebody and they made him feel like himself. He lives with his mother, he’s almost 40 and he takes crack (cocaine) and has an endless stream of drug addicts shouting outside his house and sometimes they put the house windows through and he and his mum are always screaming and shouting at each other so there’s always lots of drama and noise, as you’d expect from the life of a drug addict. But it’s clear he’s got undiagnosed autism or undiagnosed something else and he’s just not coping with this world and it’s about to (potentially) get worse as he and his mum are selling the house, splitting the cash, she’s going to live in a little council bungalow for the elderly and him, well he’s gonna be more or less left to get on with things with a drug habit, a load of money, nowwhere to live and being completely vulnerable in this life. It breaks my heart because he’s such a good person, like most people are and this is where my mind takes me, I want to make this world a better place for people like him. Somehow or another I came through that world (drug world) and I’ve somehow made to it to where I am today. However, I do know that everything in the world is perfect, just as it is, therefore his life is perfect, just as it is, and I have to re-remind myself of that fact. I need to keep my focus on buidling my life, right now, because the biggest and best help we can ever be to anybody is to live the most perfect lives for us and although I’m feeling a little weird this morning (for some unknown reason), I know that this is a time that I need to focus solely on my life. I’m always thinking about and helping others because really, that’s what my life is all about, service to others, but I know that before I can do any more of that, I need to get my life in order, get my life set up and working in a way that is perfect for me and by then, I’ll probably be helping more people, simply by example (be the change you wish to see in the world) and through my work (which I get paid for), which will give me the perfect balance in which to enjoy my life.
Never has the word ‘balance’ been related to me before but even though I’m still an extremist (currently in training to be a breatharian), the word balance keeps popping up in relation to me, which shows me, that, Miracles, really do happen :-D
Sort of. But it's probably been the same most of my life before diagnosis. It feels like I have most mental faculties that a typically developing person would (and a fair amount of long-term self-awareness) but they don't all work together. I suppose I can related that to what psychologists mean by 'weak central coherence' or strong bias to local processing, and what Temple Grandin calls a lack of 'inter-office communication'. How you put them together maybe is an individual thing, which is why people don't like to interfere, but maybe some of the pieces in my case are too large or too small and they just don't fit together. I still have the belief that someone will be able to help me make sense of things, but it's taking a while...
Good to hear you could provide a listening ear to your neighbour, and that sounds mutually rewarding. Hope he can get some professional support too.
extremist (currently in training to be a breatharian)
That is extreme. I'm contemplating veganism and just researching B12 supplements, but as a rationalist I have to suggest breatharians need a supplement of, well, food.
Cassandro said:what Temple Grandin calls a lack of 'inter-office communication'
Mine is sometimes more like “out of office”
Who are you hoping will help you? ... and, how long will you wait?