Published on 12, July, 2020
I just can't. I wish she wasn't autistic, she is 9 and was diagnosed a couple of months ago. I read some of the posts on here in tears because all you parents are so wonderful...I must be a terrible mother if I can't love her, but she is no good at being a daughter.
I have 3 other children who are all beautiful and neurotypical and don't cause me any trouble, and I look at them with such pride, yet I can't look at my autistic daughter with pride at all. I try and do my best for her but it wears me down, I spend most of my life in tears over her behaviour and I just don't know what to do. Children are meant to bring you joy and she does not bring me joy.
This is ruining my life, my husband wants me to see a doctor and discuss going onto antidepressants or to seek counselling, but neither of those things can change my daughter.
Please tell me I'm not alone in this feeling.
I think this is appalling to hear, maybe if you chose to love your daughter she would not cause you so many problems. It is completely wrong to love the other children and not your autistic daughter, did you ever think that this could be what is causing her bad behaviour. I am autistic and if you were my mum and loved my other siblings and not me I would absolutely resent you and behave badly out of spite of you. Part of being a parent is taking responsibility and showing love to your children equally.