Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi my name is Leah and I recently had my diagnoses with autism and ADHD I also have a learning disability as well but I am writing this as I need some advice and help, because I’m not sure how I am feeling I always struggle with my emotions and I can never explain how I’m feeling because i always find it difficult, to express how I am feeling and when my mom asked me I could never tell how because i didn’t know how to explain,I also struggle with socialising I was never good at it I always struggle making friends I rather be on my own, I would also let my mom do the talking as I was to scared or shy I sometimes wonder that I could be normal as I struggle day to day life but I keep it to myself so know one would know as I like to hide my emotions and don’t show it but deep down I just want to cry and tell someone but I would have a fear of someone judging me saying that it’s nothing and to move past it, I would tell my mom but I find it hard to tell her and put it in to words where typing this is lot easier, but I also wonder to be a average adult because of my learning disability my mind is of a young child so I like do childish things and I also like to stay home but my mom always say I just go out more but again I don’t like going out i always have a fear everyone just looking at me as I suffer from anxiety as well so that’s another struggle, I also work I’m a support worker I do a lot of hours and it can be draining to the point that I don’t have any energy but I love the clients that I help and support them, but when I’m off I just like to do something as I don’t have to energy and I’m just so tired, and I rather just sleep and stay in my room as I call that my safe space, I do have a lot to so but I won’t say them as it’s long and I don’t want to waste any one time reading this but thank you.
Hello Leah,
Welcome to this place. You don't need to worry about telling your truth here.....what you have written above is VERY common to many people in this place. You will not be judged here......we understand what you write and how you feel. We don't have your life, but the echoes from it will be very familiar to most, if not all of us here. Most of us are tired and alone and struggle with our emotions.....and find it hard to express that.....we're often told to be "different and better".....but all we can do is be "different and ourselves."
May I suggest that you just start contributing on the threads that pop-up if you feel there is something that you want to say. If you do that, you will start to find the people who are most similar and/or can identify with your reality.
Anyway - I just wanted to say hi and reassure you that this place is AOK......and that your writing above DEFINITELY isn't a waste of anybodies time......tell us more as and when you feel you want to.
With kindness and connection,
A fellow autistic Number.