Published on 12, July, 2020
I don't know whether it's because I'm not a pure autistic person, I also have severe mental illness, but I find it hard to fit in here. Others here seem to have no difficulty bonding with each other, and chatting like they've known each other for many years. That's a great social skill to have., but one I don't have. For want of a better phrase I'd say other posters here are 'socially adept' in a way I'll never be. They lead far more high powered lives.
They have/have had good careers . Have good academic qualifications. I never had a paid job, and only did a bit of voluntary work. My academic qualifications stopped at 6 O levels. I've never pursued further education due to bullying related trauma. I have to have a lot of practical support because of poor adaptive functioning ability.
It's not something I've allowed to get into my head when it comes to this forum, but I absolutely have in other environments. And I feel too ashamed to raise it.
What I don't want is to guilt anyone into including me. If they don't want to, they don't want to.
I do fall into a "I'm not as good as these other people" trap often too.
HMO said:I do fall into a "I'm not as good as these other people" trap often too.
I completely understand where you're coming from. It's so easy to compare ourselves to others and feel like we don't measure up.
Remember, you are your own biggest critic, and it's okay to be proud of yourself for how far you've come. You are more than good enough, just as you are.
My therapists words to me as this is something I also struggle with big time.
I appreciate that. It does feel like everything I've done is not good enough.