Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi all,
Was wondering what everyone's thoughts/feelings/experiences of gigs are?
On paper they're not the best places to be with so many things going on. For myself I tend to get uncomfortable when the crowds are packed too close and I get hyper-aware of how close I am to other people and feeling elbows etc brush against me. Feel like I constantly have to hold my breath. What I find weird for myself though is I love the feeling of the sound at gigs, not particularly the sound itself, but the vibrations of it in my chest and my body and limbs, I close my eyes to block out the lights and just feel it in my bones. For this reason I prefer rock gigs to anything else.
Anyway, just wanted to ask what others peoples thoughts and experiences were?
I used to love them. When the lights went out and someone I loved was playing, the anxiety I got from being around these people and the sadness I got the rest of the week would drop away and I could be almost entirely present and in the moment. I guess in that situation I had that mentality where I felt like I was part of this crowd, where in a crowded shopping centre I felt very much like one person surrounded by other people. For 60-90 minutes I felt actually happy.
Maybe one day I'll be able to go back, but my anxiety went from social anxiety to GAD and panic disorder so they're too scary now.
Thanks for sharing! I agree, that feeling of being in the moment and just a part of it all is great. I hope that one day maybe you will be able to go back and have that feeling again.
Take care.